Nervous chatter

I sit here tonight in awe of our friends and family. It is 2 days before Christmas, and people felt the want to come to a benefit for me and my family. I'm certain that their was plenty to do at home, or work, or with kids and their own families. I'm so grateful for the time and money and support we have received thought this entire journey. Its possible for me to stay home a bit longer from full time work, and get my family back in a healthy and normal routine without our finances being such an area for stress. It's amazing, all of it, and we are thankful <3

My dad put me on the spot tonight, asking that I update everyone at the benefit about Kayden.. Awesome idea, but caught me off guard. I'm a terrible speaker, and my words come out much nicer written out instead of spoken. So for those who had to hear my nervous chatter... Here is what I should have said..along with my thank you, which didn't make it's way out of my mouth either!

Kayden is doing well so far at home. I can tell he is so much more comfortable. I feel like im getting into a routine again with him, and im a little bit more at ease around him. I don't know the name of it, but there is a prayer or childs song that a snow globe I once had played. It goes something like, "now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep, if I shall die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take" - i have prayed this prayer every night since we have been home. It calms me down about the sleeping hours of the day, when I'm not able to stalk Kayden :) It's my way of handing things over to God for the night, to keep a watchful eye on my baby. I'm hoping that one day, my nerves will relax, and I'll feel like Kayd is so much more durable.

We have seen our doctors office once, and a visiting nurse once since we've been home. He is gaining weight and eating well. He has a fussy period of day, which is around dinner time and other than that - he is as happy as a clam. (I have to admit I don't really understand that metaphor, why are clams so happy?) He is still taking Zantac for acid reflux, and gas drops, and vitamins. He is starting to finally grow somembutt cheeks!

Well, with much to do tomorrow, and 4 hrs of sleep a night... I'm off to bed. Enjoy every moment with your loved ones, and from my family to yours,
Have a very merry holiday <3

Benjamin, Melissa, Maxon & Kayden