Is it ok to have a frustrated moment!? Here I go... Kayden STILL has no progress. He's not making any moves backwards, and his oxygenation levels are up a bit from yesterday - but that is all. We are not having the extubation done tomorrow, which I'm absolutely fine with if he isn't ready. I'd rather him be more than ready, but it has been a week and a half since I've held my baby. I only had 3 weeks home with him to get to know him, and even though this is so selfish, considering what our worst case scenario was, I can't help but feel like I don't know him anymore. I used to be so attuned to what he needed and wanted, and now I'm not even allowed to change his diaper or feed him :( 

BREATHE... Ok, I'm done being pouty. Thanks for listening :) My little guy is still on turtle time... so I better get on board.

Our good friends, the Soch'as, stopped by for a visit today and brought 2 things. 

1) The Elf of the Shelf for Maxon!! I'm so excited to start this tradition with my boys. Here is where he is hiding out for now...

By the way, how creepy is he!? 

2) A turtle keychain, LOVE it!

We also got our Christmas tree today. Max was excited to help "Bamm it down" with daddy. 

Ben walked almost the entire Dzen Tree Farm (or at least it felt that way) to find the perfect tree.. Here is the final outcome :) 

Now if only we could all be home to enjoy it! Baahhhhh hurry up Kayden, we have lots of fun memories to make:) Wishing for my house to be full again this Christmas! 

Tomorrow brings another day, and another full 24 hours of recovery. Tonight let's pray for some tiny turtle steps from Kayden <3

With so much love, 

Melissa & Kayden